Your gonna miss this

I like country music. It is always the music I go back too after hopping from 80s to 90s to classical to modern. I have to admit, classical was a childhood staple as we listen to Bach and Mozart while going to sleep as kids, as well as Les Miserables on my walkman for any road trip. I memorized most of that musical.

But I come back to country time and time again. I remember sleeping outside on the trampoline or in blanket made hammocks as a child and falling asleep to country music that Nathan played on his old radio that looked like a tiny TV. 

John Micheal Montgomery, George Strait, Alan Jackson, Paul Brant. And many others. I have learned to love the oldies in recent years such as Hank Williams. There is something soothing about his voice. 

There's a modernish country song called you'r gonna miss this. I am thinking about it now. 

I know that the tiredness, the business, the anxiety, the chaos and confusion of having a job, kids and a million things to do and places to be will go by too quickly and I am going to miss this someday. So I will hold onto it as long as I can. I am just watching 8 year old Mary sleep next to me. Sometimes 3 or 4 kids will end up with me in bed and I wake up with aches from sleeping in weird positions. But that is ok. I will miss this someday and I feel so blessed to have what I have. I am grateful to God for life. 

On a tangent...speaking of life...

I want to write a book someday. It will be about spiritual philosophies on life, explained in a metaphor. It will be about a young boy from a place called Innocence. Lets call him Noble. This boy has heared of the ultimate journey to a wonderful kingdom that he can find if he decides to venture out on difficult journey. In order to find this Kingdom, he is told that he needs to solve 3 riddles, each with a time limit. He starts this journey with 10 other people. When he comes upon the places where he is to solve the riddles, he sees people in need. One man in particular. This man offers him words of wisdom and Noble chooses to trust him. Noble chooses to help those in need and in doing so, he either misses the opportunity to solve the riddles or he gets the riddles wrong and is unable to obtain passage to the right path to the kingdom. These riddles are confusing and hard to get right. Noble is not a scholar. 

He gets lost in the forest while helping one in need and he stumbles onto a glorious golden fence. He beholds a beautiful kingdom beyond, with beautiful weedless gardens and delicious food set on tables of gold, yet he cannot get inside. There is no gate for him. He sees two of his friends that he started his journey with. They are beyond the golden fence. They are eating and drinking, singing and laughing. Noble calls out to these two friends and asks about the others that they came with. One of them reminds him that some of their friends were lost early on in the journey for various reasons. Others did not get the riddles right and consequencely were led down a different path. One of them on the other side of the fence states smugly, "what does it matter where these people are, I got all I want and need here. I am well fed, well entertained, comfy and happy" The other friend looks cowardly towards Noble, avoiding eye contact and hesitantly states "I don't know where our other friends are but I shall not go after them. I will stay here where it is safe." 

Noble looks as them with confusion and sadness. He does not remember his friends being so selfish. He continues down the path he is on to look for the others. The path takes him to a dungeon under the kingdom. It is dark, wet, cold, awful. The only light is from fires that burn the flesh as people get too close. There is no way out. He finds his 7 other friends in that place. He helps those friends and the many that are there. He sings to them, he gives of his food in his backpack and his coat off his back. He offers them hope, warmth and light. They are in despair. 

The wise man from the Journey finds Noble in the Dungeon. He teaches Noble and lets Noble decide what he wants to do. Noble wants to stay and help his friends rather than enjoy the luxuries above. This desire triggers something in the wise man and he shows his true, magnificent colors. He leads Noble and all who choose to go with him (after learning more of what the wise man has to say), on another jounry. It is a harder journey, up a mountain beyond the kingdom. They take their time and help each other along. The view at the top is incredible. The King is there, overlooking his kingdom. He teaches them what to look for and this allows Noble and all who desire too, to see in the distance those who have just started their journey from the land of Innocence. Those at the top of the mountain can make the choice to continue a difficult journey back to the start to be wise men for those there, and to help those who need help, who are reaching for something more. 

This is all I've got for now. If I don't write this book, maybe someone who thinks like me will. 

Anyways, I best be going to bed. Just wanted to write my thoughts down.